Family Remembrance
A message from Tim
This is the most painful experience I have ever had in my life as it would be for any parent in this situation. Making this even more difficult was the closeness between Tyler and I which transcended a normal father and son relationship.
Tyler was a source of strength for me through the difficult times in my life and my love for Tyler was clearly evident to anyone who knew me.
The amount of time and love we shared together was multiplied by Tyler's participation in minor sports and my decision to encourage him through coaching. Although Tyler played on quite a few teams I did not coach, overall I did coach him on 1 baseball team, 3 Roller Hockey teams, and 6 Hockey teams. We won many tournaments and 4 championships. We also shared many defeats. In the competitive minor hockey world the season can run from August until April + summer hockey. We lived in rural Caledon and would travel an average of one half hour each way for practices and up to two hours for regular season games. We played and practiced 4-6 times per week.
It was during these long drives and time spent together in the dressing room, where I would give a motivational talk before, and usually after each and every game that we really bonded. From speaking with Tyler's friends his commitment to health, responsibility, and the enjoyment of life resembled my own in so many ways.
Just yesterday I was being told of his regimen of taking vitamins, exercising and eating healthy being implemented into all of his friends lives. I also heard of some other stories and pranks which I cannot share in this email which really led me to understand how much the same we really were.
When I was notified of Tyler's passing by telephone, (I was in Italy, I went numb and wept more in the next 36 hours than I have in the past 15 years), I was and still am devastated. It is difficult for me to imagine life without Tyler as the effort and passion that I put into building companies is greatly motivated by Tyler and my other children.
Although this may seem a little strange, (or may not), I have been having conversations with Tyler since his death. He has told me that he loves me and he is so sorry for any pain and suffering he has caused to anyone due to this tragic accident.
He has also asked me to forgive him and for me to ask all others that he has hurt for forgiveness. The true meaning of forgiveness to return to the way we were beFORe the pain was caused. Tyler learned the true meaning of forgiveness at Landmark Education and reminded me of this when I first forgave him, but he saw me giving up.
He said, "Dad, you must go back to the way you were beFORe this tragedy and turn it into even more power to keep on doing the things you have been doing in your life".
He continues to remind me of this and I have promised him I will. I hope that anyone who reads this will understand that we need to choose our responses to painful occurrences in our lives. We can choose to give up and have our energy and life taken away, or we can choose to allow pain and tragedy to motivate us, to compel us to use that force to make the most for ourselves in a way that will benefit others, and enrich their lives and our own.
Tyler I love you, and even though I feel you around me at all times, and continue to speak with you, I really want to play one more game of golf, have one more celebration, and most importantly one more big hug and "I love you". And I know you do too.
Much Love,
Dad XOXOXO
Son, I am so proud of you. Thank you for giving 20 unbelievable years.
